In 1997 I attempted to take my own life by swallowing a handful of pills. Over 50 to be exact. I didn't warn anyone or tell anyone that I was going to do this. I felt so unwanted and unloved in the world and my family. I had never, so much as dated a guy up to this age. I didn't have many friends. I was no popular. I was failing in school. I felt my whole life falling around me and with someone close to me in my life telling me that I was not worth a shit and nobody wanted me. I went to the bathroom and swallowed all the pills I had in my prescription and staggered out of the bathroom and crashed on the couch. My mom was the first to realize what I had done. She phoned the ambulance and I was taken to the local hospital to have my stomach pumped. It was the most horrible experience of my life. I will never attempt this again, nor any other way of suicide.
My life didn't improve at all from that day. As a matter of fact not long after that I was raped and left for dead in San Antonio. I went through years of abuse, homelessness, poverty and so much more. Which is why my name has become the Texas Warrior Princess. Today my life is going much better. I am learning to heal on the inside. Allow myself to forgive those who have hurt me in the past. Learn to love again, most especially myself.
It deeply hurts me to hear someone say they want to commit suicide. People usually tell someone because it is a cry for help. If you are having these feelings it is best to tell someone. Even if it is not a close relative. We just need someone to share our pain with and have it validated.
In the U.S., suicide rates are highest during the spring. Suicide is the 3rd leading cause of death for 15 to 24-year-olds and 2nd for 24 to 35-year-olds. On average, 1 person commits suicide every 16.2 minutes. Each suicide intimately affects at least 6 other people. These numbers are shocking. It leads to ask what is the world doing to prevent this besides shoving pills down peoples throats that are not helping?
One thing that has helped me this summer to overcome much of my deep depression and pain, is to journal. I have grown closer to God and would love to show you how I am doing so that has impacted myself and others in such a positive way. I understand if you are angry with God right now. I am not here to convince you to believe in him or change your religious beliefs. I was where you are for the over 32 years of my life. I spent all that time in the Dark, blasphemy was my best friend. I would be glad to sit down and listen to your pain over the phone. If you just send me a message via the Lets Connect Page including your email and phone. We can set up a time.
Stay strong and know that God loves you and so do I. Your sister in Christ.
Texas Warrior Princess
My life didn't improve at all from that day. As a matter of fact not long after that I was raped and left for dead in San Antonio. I went through years of abuse, homelessness, poverty and so much more. Which is why my name has become the Texas Warrior Princess. Today my life is going much better. I am learning to heal on the inside. Allow myself to forgive those who have hurt me in the past. Learn to love again, most especially myself.
It deeply hurts me to hear someone say they want to commit suicide. People usually tell someone because it is a cry for help. If you are having these feelings it is best to tell someone. Even if it is not a close relative. We just need someone to share our pain with and have it validated.
In the U.S., suicide rates are highest during the spring. Suicide is the 3rd leading cause of death for 15 to 24-year-olds and 2nd for 24 to 35-year-olds. On average, 1 person commits suicide every 16.2 minutes. Each suicide intimately affects at least 6 other people. These numbers are shocking. It leads to ask what is the world doing to prevent this besides shoving pills down peoples throats that are not helping?
One thing that has helped me this summer to overcome much of my deep depression and pain, is to journal. I have grown closer to God and would love to show you how I am doing so that has impacted myself and others in such a positive way. I understand if you are angry with God right now. I am not here to convince you to believe in him or change your religious beliefs. I was where you are for the over 32 years of my life. I spent all that time in the Dark, blasphemy was my best friend. I would be glad to sit down and listen to your pain over the phone. If you just send me a message via the Lets Connect Page including your email and phone. We can set up a time.
Stay strong and know that God loves you and so do I. Your sister in Christ.
Texas Warrior Princess
Below I have attached one of my favorite songs by Danny Gokey called "More than you Think I am" I hope it helps and inspires you in some way to know that you are truly loved.